back to dust cobwebs...

i realised i haven't been doing much posting since a few weeks ago. its not that i couldn't have done so, rather, i didn't want to do so. blogging may be some people's favourite pasttime, writing down their memories and keeping in cyberspace for eternity. of course, their purpose of blogging is to hope people will be able to read their online expressions and thus being able to understand the writer better. however, is it really necessary for a modern netizen like me, to post on my blog memories of my everyday experiences and wished everyone else in cyberspace will chance upon this pathetic blog?

the answer is all within ourselves. its just that we do not have the guts to admit that, its not necessary. all we wanted, is for more poeple to notice our very existence in this world, and blogs are the tool that we could use to make that happen. its free, its easy, and its available. that's why most of us blogging now, make use of this intelligent tool of the internet to display one's sense of narcissm (sorry, spelling sucks, but u get what i mean). we spend almost our time living in the physical world, where we suppressed by market forces, community standards, and society's expectations of us. the ideal is for us, in the asian community that is, to be humble no matter how large our success, to express care and concern for those around us even when we knew how darn stupid the person looked, or that we have to listen to the orders of those elders or in a superior position than us. hence, it is inveitable that once we had the power to broadcast whatever feelings or sentiments we have inside us for so long, we had to do it. we wanted everyone else to know what was thinking in our heads, and not get into trouble by doing so. all because, blog's were of private material and we cannot be sued of whatever content the blog contains. well, thats besides posting anti-society material, anti-person material, anti-community material, anti-......

in the end, we are still restricted by rules, regulations and laws of the cyberspace. we are still closely monitored by government bodies, watchdogs, and even the nice law-abiding reader of our blogs, who at the first instance of discovering anti-... expressions, will not hesistate to report the blog to the police. hence, are blogs still an effective tool to display our true emotions, our real expressions, or is it another way to pacify the readers and play along with the harsh standards of the community i live in?