so here's the big news: i scored 4 distinctions in all my content subjects. and a B3 for gp.
that's really great for me. i mean, i would never seen myself scoring that, going up on stage to take my result slip with the 4 As on it. no, i really didn't. the feeling's like, i'm in a dream. its a really cool experience. i was shocked, overwhelmed. yeah, but it lasted for a while. hearing my mother's voice over the phone was really a blessing. hearing her expressing her joy on her son's excellent results, to me was the greatest thing i could have heard in a day. at least, she didn't had to worry for a minute then. and my dad too of course. plus my ol' sister. she's really proud of me. i could definitely tell from her sms. yeah.
but right now, at 0013 hours, i feel so down. deep inside me, i feel so un attached to any of my friends. suddenly, its like i have become a stranger to almost everyone i knew. that they will turn their backs on me when they feel like it. its like i have zero support from my friends. so what if i have scored 4 As. so what if my results was good, get a scholarship, get a great paying job, when i have no 2-way relationships with anyone. the result slip is nothing as compared to human realtionships. the thing i treasure most, the thing i yearn for, ain't results or a bright future. its just plain love from my friends. yet, i just don't have it in my life, sad to say.
i can see myself, alone in a apartment 10 years down. living a lonely night with a glass of martini in my hand, me sitting at the window side. then there will be the sounds of a couple walking by. while i look around, and find no one beside me, whom loves me as much as i love her. nope, no one.
that's why when people ask, why not you stop clubbing. "its bad" they say. yeah, becasue i have no friends who will ask me out when they need company. i'm probably the last on their call list. i have none who i know will say yes when i ask for help. nah. i think i will accept the fact that suddenly, all whom i have had called a friend, i can't hardly ever depend on for real help. probably a overstatement on my part, which i really hope to be, but it seems that its just that.
cheers to me. cheers to everyone else i call a friend.
that's really great for me. i mean, i would never seen myself scoring that, going up on stage to take my result slip with the 4 As on it. no, i really didn't. the feeling's like, i'm in a dream. its a really cool experience. i was shocked, overwhelmed. yeah, but it lasted for a while. hearing my mother's voice over the phone was really a blessing. hearing her expressing her joy on her son's excellent results, to me was the greatest thing i could have heard in a day. at least, she didn't had to worry for a minute then. and my dad too of course. plus my ol' sister. she's really proud of me. i could definitely tell from her sms. yeah.
but right now, at 0013 hours, i feel so down. deep inside me, i feel so un attached to any of my friends. suddenly, its like i have become a stranger to almost everyone i knew. that they will turn their backs on me when they feel like it. its like i have zero support from my friends. so what if i have scored 4 As. so what if my results was good, get a scholarship, get a great paying job, when i have no 2-way relationships with anyone. the result slip is nothing as compared to human realtionships. the thing i treasure most, the thing i yearn for, ain't results or a bright future. its just plain love from my friends. yet, i just don't have it in my life, sad to say.
i can see myself, alone in a apartment 10 years down. living a lonely night with a glass of martini in my hand, me sitting at the window side. then there will be the sounds of a couple walking by. while i look around, and find no one beside me, whom loves me as much as i love her. nope, no one.
that's why when people ask, why not you stop clubbing. "its bad" they say. yeah, becasue i have no friends who will ask me out when they need company. i'm probably the last on their call list. i have none who i know will say yes when i ask for help. nah. i think i will accept the fact that suddenly, all whom i have had called a friend, i can't hardly ever depend on for real help. probably a overstatement on my part, which i really hope to be, but it seems that its just that.
cheers to me. cheers to everyone else i call a friend.
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