well, i just went for a short run alone. again. 25 minutes of solitude, away from the family, away from my papers and notes, away from my troubles.
just pure bliss of breathing, panting, with my pespiration dripping down my forehead, feeling it row down my arms. the shirt gets heavier with my pespiration and the cyclo-movement of the legs and the swinging arms. i feel so much better after a run, that i just have been lifted out of quicksand, so free, feeling great to be alive once more.
but the thing that troubles me most of the time, is that i find myself alone. there's hardly anyone that can share the joy of running whenever they want to and able to. i can't relate to people who love the feel of breezing through the chlorinated waters of the neighbourhood pool, or gliding through the air while on the run (literally). except for good friends that i have in school, namely kaiyuan (who's the closest to being my buddy in loving exercising and soon to be partners in business), jun xiong (he's a great guy, loyal, thoughful for others, have a appetite to be fit too but not as much), errol ( he's the best buddy that i can talk to. full of nonsense yes, but honest, able to relate beneath surfaces and he makes me feel appreciated), hui sin (she's those crazy about running and swimming like me, but her mood swings puts me off most of the times) , justin ( he's a damn nice guy, i can talk to him and feel very comfortable ) , and there a few people in school whom i know are great people, and great friends, there isn't much people that understands who i am inside, that i'm a guy who needs more attention and appreciation because he wasn't given it since young, that can guide me along my path of searching for my self.
its just heartening to see my friends. i'm overjoyed when i'm with them. they give me a special feeling that makes my existence worthwhile you know?
after 2 weeks of slugging it out, i'm down to the last week of the exams. and its also the most challenging week. 7 papers within 3 days? yeah. its going to be tough, an uphill battle that i must win and not lose. but the exams, seriously, have no meaning to me. it doesn't show that i'm a better human being, it doesn't show that i can relate to people and help them to accept their difficulties. no, all it does is to further categorise us into A scorers, B scorers.... that some people are better than others and the rest losers, non-achievers. that those who score are elites and the rest deserved to be stepped upon. its not meant to be like that in life. you have a life, and that's special. no need to say more, just feel.
i feel my love lacks a medium for it to bask in. i want to pour it on you.
just pure bliss of breathing, panting, with my pespiration dripping down my forehead, feeling it row down my arms. the shirt gets heavier with my pespiration and the cyclo-movement of the legs and the swinging arms. i feel so much better after a run, that i just have been lifted out of quicksand, so free, feeling great to be alive once more.
but the thing that troubles me most of the time, is that i find myself alone. there's hardly anyone that can share the joy of running whenever they want to and able to. i can't relate to people who love the feel of breezing through the chlorinated waters of the neighbourhood pool, or gliding through the air while on the run (literally). except for good friends that i have in school, namely kaiyuan (who's the closest to being my buddy in loving exercising and soon to be partners in business), jun xiong (he's a great guy, loyal, thoughful for others, have a appetite to be fit too but not as much), errol ( he's the best buddy that i can talk to. full of nonsense yes, but honest, able to relate beneath surfaces and he makes me feel appreciated), hui sin (she's those crazy about running and swimming like me, but her mood swings puts me off most of the times) , justin ( he's a damn nice guy, i can talk to him and feel very comfortable ) , and there a few people in school whom i know are great people, and great friends, there isn't much people that understands who i am inside, that i'm a guy who needs more attention and appreciation because he wasn't given it since young, that can guide me along my path of searching for my self.
its just heartening to see my friends. i'm overjoyed when i'm with them. they give me a special feeling that makes my existence worthwhile you know?
after 2 weeks of slugging it out, i'm down to the last week of the exams. and its also the most challenging week. 7 papers within 3 days? yeah. its going to be tough, an uphill battle that i must win and not lose. but the exams, seriously, have no meaning to me. it doesn't show that i'm a better human being, it doesn't show that i can relate to people and help them to accept their difficulties. no, all it does is to further categorise us into A scorers, B scorers.... that some people are better than others and the rest losers, non-achievers. that those who score are elites and the rest deserved to be stepped upon. its not meant to be like that in life. you have a life, and that's special. no need to say more, just feel.
i feel my love lacks a medium for it to bask in. i want to pour it on you.
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