fallen.

its abit early to tell whether we could still win. given those crappy race sets that the year 2s have rowed so far. i mean, we have rowed for more than 6 months with mr lee. yet, our boat just can't go together, and the situation has become worse. its like each man rowing his own 24-men boat. and with each passing training, i see those eyes, filled with disappointment, and somehowing feeling useless that they can't help the boat to go faster. each day, i see a team mate fall, giving up on themselves, and most importantly the team.

i can't help it to feel this way too. the situation looks bleak. the chances of holding something in our hands are slim. i know. everyone else in my boat knows it deep down. they just don't want to show it.

but yet, for myself, i know that i have not given up on everything else. there's still plenty to look for. the shimmer of a silver lining still remains, far far over the horizon. i want to pass this thought to my other team-mates.

i saw kenneth's tan nickname on msn today. and it somehow got me to feel good again.

it read,

"i can give everything, but up."

there's still one last chance tomorrow morning.

i will give everything, but up. i promise.