its nearing to 17th.

i'm counting down to my national school's.

10 days left. 5 training sessions.

looking back, i think i have kind of come quite far. from a guy whom have no idea about dragonboating, living fit, and no idea what was creatine and NO then. i really think i have grown up.

and i have cried twice for dragonboat. for myself and the team. the only two times, i have seriously let my feelings take over me. now, life seems so much more dark, and questionable.

i wonder what lies ahead. in front of me. after july. what's going to happen.

so many questions are popping in my head. but the main one is, am i going to be with her? can i be with her? hmmm. chances are, not really high. i can't help but to feel this way.

scuba diving suddenly seems close to me. now i have got the time to do it. after a 1 year absence from the diving scene. yay! probably one of the first things i will do is go diving at pulau aur, or pulau dayang. maybe redang? haha.

too many decisions i have to make. too many faiths i will take away. even my own, maybe. i can only wish things will shine in the end. my efforts will pay off. that i can look back when i'm out of this team, and smile to myself, saying, this was the best time of my jc life.

i owe mr lee a word of thanks. going to help him run the year 1s if he needs the help. will come back and coach those buggers(haha.) and turn them into the singapore's top 5 teams in the singapore regatta in nov.

but now, its back to me. myself. my effort. my team.